Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.

i had an epiphany the other nght...after i had written the post before the last post...

this is not the epiphany...just an observation...one should probably not make phone calls or send emails, and i'll even add text messages into the list, when he/she is (a) tired or (b) mad or (c) frustrated...or any of those feelings...one should especially not make phone calls, send emails, or text messages when he/she is a combination of any of those feelings...

go to sleep, go to sleep, if you're tired, be quiet and go to sleep (go to sleep)

and usually, things are a whole lot better in the morning...and one is either (a) really glad that the phone call was not made, the email or text message not sent, or (b) extremely nervous that communication was attempted...

at one time, i seemed to be always in that (b) category...nervous the next day because i had spoke before i really thought...or, no longer mad at what was originally the problem, but now mad at myself because i exhibited absolutely no patience (or smartness).

the epiphany...you wanna know when i can take the picking a little and talking a little...it's when you make the choice to show up...it tends to be, i realized, that when you are not around to pick...that's when i get real irritated or frustrated....when you show up, you can say pretty much whatever you want...the picking...it's cool, cause apparently, "it's what we do"....

and no need to have any hurt feelings there...i was just "we'd" (not wed)

again, i can make all sorts of speculations of what all this means, or rationalizations that it's indeed healthy, or scenarios in which this or that will or will not happen...

no use...you showed up and that's really all i need sometimes~